Ethiopia Day 4

Saturday, April 2, 2011

One of the perks of staying at the Ethiopian Guest House is that you get a complimentary massage. Ahhhhh...  So nice!  We scheduled ours for this morning right after breakfast because we were told that we didn't have anything scheduled until the afternoon.  The translator and driver would be busy in the morning picking up the other family from the airport.  We weren't expecting to have anywhere to be until a while after lunch.  I had my massage second and as I was coming down the stairs I saw that Hermella was talking to Justin, saying we had to leave right then.  What?  We needed a serious shower after getting greased down from the massage!  Oh well.  We packed up the baby and then headed on to the House of Hope so the others could get their kids and we could take pictures for our friends.  After lunch at the House of Hope Guest Home we went back to our guest home.

He got to see his nanny friends wen we went back.

This was the day I realized there was a reason (well, more than one but...) that God does not allow women to birth 20 pound + babies.  My arms were not used to lugging him around and now that I'd done it for the third day, my arms were getting tired.  As I held him to give him a bottle on my left arm, without any support again, I pulled a muscle in my shoulder.  I figure the massage loosened it up earlier in the morning and when I used the next time, it was strained.  Ouch!  It was difficult to hold him, change clothes, shower...  What a big boy he is!

That afternoon, we went to fill out our paperwork for our Embassy appointment Monday!  It took all of a few minutes and we were off to go shopping with the other two families and their kids.  I wanted to get some scarves, jewelry, coffee, etc. as souvenirs for friends and family.

The rest of the evening was spent enjoying our sweet baby a little more before his bedtime.  We were so thankful that he was consistently sleeping from 7 pm to 6 am!!

Ethiopia Day 3

Friday, April 1, 2011

As the sun rose at 6 am, I noticed Silas was snuggling in his Pack N Play with his lovey!  I just had to get up and take a picture of it.  His eyes were closed until he heard the beep and it flashed...oops!  I don't remember if I said this or not in the last post, but Thursday night I only slept about 30 minutes.  No fun.  I changed lots of diapers, listened to the cars and trucks outside, the donkeys, the rooster, the dogs...smelled the exhaust fumes, dirt, and smoke from the cow patty stoves.  My mind ran all night long.

We got up and ready Friday morning and went to the National Museum.  The other couples who were coming to get their kids weren't scheduled to be there until that night or early the next morning so we were by ourselves with our translator.  The museum isn't exactly what most Americans would expect to see.  Because of my semester overseas during college, I was able to see all kinds of small museums and this really wasn't much different than those.  There were artifacts from the different regions of the country, pottery, weaved baskets, old farming tools, etc.  Pretty interesting to me.  I love learning about other cultures, especially how they 'used to be.'

Two strange things in this museum.  Lucy-Said to be the oldest found skeleton. They say she's a hominid (ape/human hybrid species).  A painting of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden-They were apes.  Apparently there's a theory that meshes Darwin's evolution and God's creation together.  I couldn't help but laugh.  I thought it was so strange!  Never heard of that before!

I had Silas in the Moby the whole time and he was great!  He slept some, peeked out some.  So sweet.  There were a lot of school kids there that day and we got lots of looks, if you can imagine.  There were several girls who came up to us and wanted to play with him.  :)  As we left, there were a few more groups of smaller kids outside and they were playing London Bridges and singing it in English.  Oh, how I love their little accents!  So precious...I had a hard time not staring.

We got back to the guest house, had lunch and then napped!  Oh, it was so nice to actually sleep.  We ended up declining the afternoon outing to Entoto Mountain because we were napping on and off all afternoon.  Now that I know what I missed, I kind of regret that decision.  Maybe we'll have an opportunity to go back and see it someday.  Friday was such a lazy day but we enjoyed just being there, getting over jet lag, and getting to know Silas without much hustle and bustle.  I was so thankful for coming a few days early.

Through the storms

I've been slacking on catching up with our trip because the evenings are the quiet time in our house to sit down and type it out.  This week, we've been spending our evenings watching the weather and getting in our 'safe place.'  Monday was bad.  A funnel cloud was forming over us and touched down a few miles from our house.  It did major damage to the local Air Force Base and a high school.  Another tornado had a very long track and hit a few communities.  Friends of ours had damage to their houses, but luckily no one we know had major destruction or loss of life.  However, several died in this storm and so many people lost everything.

Our 'safe place' is in the little cubby of a hallway we have.  I got blankets, Cooper collected a large stack of books in the bathroom, we got the flashlight, a candle and lighter, and our cell phones.  I got the baby, a blanket and a bottle.  Justin got Cooper's mattress to lean over us as we huddled in the hall.  The satellite went out and we then relied on our phones.  I hate the sounds of the sirens and the hail and the winds.  For some reason, Cooper thought this was fun!

Tuesday was predicted to be worse than Monday so we were gearing up for something terrible.  It ended up not being as bad, thank God.

We watched the weather most of the evening and Cooper was upset he couldn't watch any cartoons for two nights in a row...I say, waaah!  :)  He decided to make his own 'hiding spot' and got his Handy Manny tent, a blanket, some books, and played with the flashlight.  We then let him go to our bedroom to watch TV when Silas went to bed.

As the storms died down in Arkansas overnight, they revved back up as they crossed Mississippi on Wednesday.  As we got home Wednesday night we started seeing the footage of HUGE tornadoes hitting Alabama.  I can't even imagine.  Hundreds of lives lost and entire communities depleted.

Last night we were gathering things to give to a family nearby who lost their home to the tornado.  I asked Cooper to look for some toys that the middle boy might like.  At first, he cried and didn't want to let go of his toys.  We talked for awhile and I was so happy to see God work in this sweet boy.  He decided to give away a few cars, we went to his play area and found a baseball, then on to his closet where he found art supplies and tried to give away a few of his games (I figured this family didn't have room to house many toys right now!).  Then he picked out a small stack of books to donate.  By the end of the process he was so proud of himself I was too!  We took several bags of stuff to a friend who will organize it and send it on and Cooper told her, "There's a little boy and he doesn't have any toys because the storm came and bwowed aaaall his toys away.  So I gave him some of mine!"  Brought tears to this mama's eyes.

I'm thankful to have a God who softens hearts and works in us to do for others.  Through the tragedy of these storms, my sweet Cooper was given the opportunity to give.

Firefighter sunglasses from his kids meal the other day.

Chef's hat made from a fruit snack box.  Silly.

Ethiopia Day 2: GOTCHA!!

Thursday, March 31

I didn't sleep much Wednesday night.  Stinking jet lag.  Really though, I didn't care....I got to see the African sunrise and we were about to go get our baby!  We ate breakfast with our new friends at the guest house and then our driver came.  Our translator laughed at me because I was so obviously excited!

My heart started fluttering as we drove the short distance to the transition house.  We went up to the family room and it felt like forever until they brought him in.  Through the window, I saw a nanny bring him down the balcony.  My first impression was that he had grown SO much and his hair was growing back out!  I had a hissy fit when I received pictures a few weeks before and his head had been shaved.  No one called me to authorize the cutting of my child's hair!  I'm over it now...no lingering bitterness...really...

They put him in my arms and immediately he tucked his head up under my neck/chin.  He was relaxed as if he remembered me and wanted nothing more than for us to hold each other.  Beautiful.  He quickly fell asleep.

He woke up a bit later and we decided to change his clothes so we could give them back and we could be on our way.  He was wearing a 2T shirt, girls flared jeans, and a brown/white polka dot undershirt with purple flowers on it.  I kind of chuckled as I took it off of him and our translator said, "Well, what colors do boys wear in your country?"  Kind of cute.  If it fits, they wear it.  Wish life here were that simple sometimes.

We got his belongings (photo album, giraffe lovey, and blanket we left him) and went back to our guest house to get acquainted with each other.  Our first van ride was scary, just holding a baby without seatbelts, carseats, or traffic laws.  He enjoyed the ride and liked watching everything as we drove-there's LOTS to look at!

Playing on the bed is pretty much the only play space we had.  He was able to crawl but not really aware he could do it since he had been confined to his crib for the majority of his life.  It was nice to open up his world a little at a time and watch his discoveries.  This little photo album we left him was worn, dirty, had been chewed on, and scratched up...made my heart happy to know he had been seeing our faces for 6 weeks.  Made my heart even happier to realize that Silas knows his brother!!  Later in the week I showed him more pictures of Cooper and he just squealed and laughed!

(VERY intrigued by the camera!)

The rest of the day we just hung out and let him nap some.  I was christened once again as mom-of-a-boy when I was peed on during the first diaper change.  Of course, right?  We found out he likes to eat and drink his bottles!  We also found out he is ready to be a good 'ol southern boy and loves his sweet potatoes.  Unfortunately, we paid for that with nasty diapers ALL NIGHT LONG.  He slept from 7 pm to 6 am and woke at least 4 times throughout the night for diaper changes but thankfully, he went back to bed easily.  Poor baby, he moaned all night long because of his tummy ache and it just broke my heart.  I didn't sleep at all but maybe an hour and a half.  Bright side?  Yet, another beautiful African sunrise was how I started the next day.

All day we just kept looking at each other asking if this is really real.  If he's really ours.  We couldn't believe it.  He's so beautiful, so sweet, so smiley, so perfect.  God has blessed us beyond measure.  That day, all the waiting and hard work and frustration melted away.  We could begin to exhale.

Ethiopia Day 1

Wednesday, March 30

After a long trip there, we finally made it to Addis Ababa, Ethiopia at around 8 am.  We went down the stairs to the visa line and it was short!  There were only about 6 people ahead of us in line and it didn't take long at all.  Last time, we waited in line for well over an hour.  Such a relief.  Then, we went to get our luggage and exchange money.  When we got through security one more time (yeah, they scan your bags once again, after you get them from the conveyor belt at baggage claim) we found our Ethiopian Guest Home translator who took our bags out to the van.

When we got to EGH and checked in, I called our in country director to ask when we were able to come get Silas.  I figured we would get cleaned up, eat lunch, and then go get him.  Instead, I was told that we would have to wait.  Our translator had asked for that day off and so there was no one to come get us and we would have to wait until tomorrow.  Maybe 9 am.  I was angry...sitting on the bed sobbing, exhausted, disappointed.  Justin came in from showering to see me like this.  How happy was he?  Yeah, right.

If we were aware of this before, we would have made arrangements to go sightseeing or visit a ministry in town. At this point, it was too late for any of that.  I mean, our baby was only 10 minutes away and we couldn't go get him!  I wished we would have just came the next day instead.  We booked our flights almost a week before this so you can't tell me no one knew we were coming.  Whatever.

I had to just let go of my frustration and make the most of the day...napping.

We didn't even take a single picture this day.

Adjustment and Attachment are Different

It's hard.  I'm not one to sugar-coat much.  I pretty much tell it like it is.  We've been home for a little more than a week and I guess we're far enough out that I can look back on the past week and evaluate.  It's been rough at times and it's been fun at times.

I'm tired.  Between the exhaustion of the trip, reestablishing routines at home, teaching Silas how to actually nap on a schedule, going to doctor appointments for him, getting Cooper to school and back, trying to teach him about his brother and that he's really okay, putting out his fits of jealousy, and keeping up with a crawler who is into everything, my sleep is well earned.  So, for the many of you who have asked, yes, we're adjusting quite well.  I'm pretty sure Cooper was afraid of Silas for a while.  I just think he had no idea what to think about/do with him.  Every day gets better and after a week, I think they really do love each other.  It's sweet.  Learning Silas and forming routines has been hard but we're just about there.  That part gets better every day as well.  He's a good baby!  Slowly, we're settling in and I have to remind myself it's only been a week.  It's not like we've had the opportunity with Silas to have him as a newborn and sleep most of the day so that Cooper could get used to having someone else in the house.  He came to us b-u-s-y!

If you have called or sent a message this past week and it hasn't been returned, please know I'm not ignoring anyone.  I'm just trying to focus on my household.  I'll get back with you when I get a moment.  :)

While we're adjusting quickly, the attachment process may take a bit longer.  Don't get me wrong, Silas knows his mama and daddy-but there's a difference between knowing us and wanting us over others and then really having a true bond with us.  I'm thankful to have gone to Ethiopia a few days early to begin the attachment process with him.  We had almost a week with him before we got home.  We decided to cancel a few outings to just stay in with him and get to know him.  Staying in one simple room with him where he had us meeting his every need immediately helped earn his trust in us before we began our trek home.

He's been through a lot in his 10 short months-lived with mother for approx. 3 mo-moved to rural orphanage for a few days-moved to House of Hope transition home for 6 months-stayed with us at the Ethiopian Guest Home for a week-now home with us.  This is much more trauma/transition most of us experience in a lifetime. From caregiver to caregiver and new surroundings is very confusing.  Right now, our focus needs to be making him realize we are his only caregivers...not only that, but we are his family.  Coming from an orphanage, he has no concept of family.

This week we have been trying to keep things as normal as possible for Cooper, yet watching Silas for signs of being overwhelmed.  We've stayed around the house, kept visitors at an absolute minimum, and gone to church.  He hasn't shown me that he's overwhelmed, but we know we're not there yet with attachment.  If we seem more secluded than normal, this is for the benefit of our family.  We've done a lot of education through the past year that has taught us how to deal with bonding and what to look for.  Experts know children from orphanage settings are known to be very pleasing, even babies, and will form artificial attachments with adults so that their needs may be met.  We know Silas will smile at and go to just about anyone.  He's a happy baby.  So many people at church have commented on how well he's adjusted and how he just loves everyone.  To most, this seems great.  To me, this isn't a comforting sign.  He should be at the 'separation anxiety' stage and right now, he could care less if he's taken away from me when there are other smiling faces around.

While in public I like to keep him in my Moby Wrap to keep his proximity close yet comfortable.  But this also allows him to interact with others without the temptation to hold him.  Many of you may see our actions with him in the coming weeks as spoiling him, or even silly.  That's fine.  We'll continue as we planned.  Justin and I will be the ones to do the majority of holding, and we will do all of the feeding, diaper changes, comforting, and putting to sleep.  As Silas' needs are repeatedly met by us and only us his trust in us grows and the bond is strengthened.  In a way we are recreating a newborn situation.  We don't want him to look to others for comfort right now.  We want him to know he can rely on us.  We are seeing signs that we're moving in the right direction, but like I've said, we've still got a way to go.  Please pray that we continue in the right direction in loving our sweet Silas.  He's so precious to us!

As always, if you have any questions, please let us know!  We'll be happy to answer them.

I guess it's time to start writing about our trip.  I'll try to start posting a day-by-day soon.

A Warm Welcome

We've been home not quite 48 hours now and we have been received with such love!

The airport was filled with family and friends ready to meet the little guy.  

This is our first picture as a family of four.

Our Small Group made these signs for our front yard...aren't they adorable?

My students made this huge banner and it was hanging on our house when we drove up!

And we were afraid he'd hate the carseat...

We're Home!

With this beautiful mess...

In the morning we're off!

I've been so excited today, it's been difficult to focus on packing.  I'm thankful to have had this week of Spring Break with Cooper to enjoy him and get ready for the huge transition we have ahead of us.  Let's hope I get a little sleep tonight!

Special Needs

As I've mentioned in previous posts, Silas' adoption is considered a 'special needs' case because he has rickets.  Rickets it almost unheard of in the US and considered and old disease because Americans just don't get it anymore.  It's the result of a vitamin D deficiency, which softens the bones.  We have no idea what to expect as far as treatment goes when he comes home because we're not exactly sure of the severity of it.  I know that it's more pronounced than what we had expected before we met him last month.

What we know about rickets: (just the basics-don't want to bore anyone!)
*It's a vitamin D deficiency
*Prevents mineralization of bones, teeth, etc.
*Causes bowing of long bones (leg braces or reconstructive surgery is sometimes needed)
*Children often learn to walk late
*Often causes short statured adults
*Causes easily broken bones and cavities
*Causes bone and joint pain
*If treated while the child is still growing, it can be totally corrected!

How it's presenting in Silas so far:
*Considerably shorter legs for his size/age
*Slightly bowed leg bones
*Rachitic rosaries (boney nodules where his ribs meet his sternum)
*Hyperextended knees
*Blood chemistry is a little off

How it's being treated now:
*Vitamin D syrup

We're anticipating x-rays, etc. once we're home with him.  I really want to know what the doctor suggests or whether she things we need an orthopedic referral.  Good thing summer is coming because we'll get him lots of sunlight so his little body will start making its own vitamin D (he stays inside all day now).  Also, he's almost 10 months old and never had any fruits/vegetables.  I'm betting getting good nutrition alone will help his status quickly.  I figure he was malnourished at birth, born to a malnourished mother who had a difficult time feeding herself, let alone a newborn.  I fault her none.  It just gives us an opportunity to give him an extra measure of love an care!

Special needs adoption isn't exactly what you may have always thought it was.  His is just a nutritional deficiency that will hopefully be corrected.  Other special needs children in Ethiopia have anything from clef palate or club foot, which is treated with surgery, to malaria, which is treated with medicine and is gone, to HIV/AIDS which requires long term medication therapy but is now a manageable disease due to medical advancements.

I think all children who are in need of adoption have a special need....the need for a loving family!

The To Do list continues

We started out our last Saturday together eating a yummy breakfast at Community Bakery and getting treats for my 'sandwich picnic on the doggie blanket', as Cooper says, for my birthday yesterday.

We're packing and packing and cleaning and organizing...  There were so many things that were so pointless to do before it was time to get ready.  I want clean clothes and a clean house when we come home.  Laundry, packing, house cleaning, and recharging batteries are all things that must be done at the last minute.  In the last two hours, most of that has gotten done.  Feels good...just wish I could have slept last night so I'd have energy to get it all finished.  Oh well.  I'm hoping to check everything off the list so we can relax and go to church tomorrow and only have to pack last minute things.

Four days and he's ours!

God knows what He's doing

Was there any doubt?  Well, okay.  At times, yes.  :)

Before our court trip we had 3 snow days to enjoy Cooper before we left for several days.  Now, it's Spring Break and I'm eating up every second I can with my sweet boy before we become a family of 4.  We'll be gone almost 2 weeks this time but since he'll be with family the entire time, we're not worried about him.  Especially since he knows exactly why we're leaving and he can't wait for baby brother to be here.  It's nice to give him some last undivided attention that he may not get from us for at least a little while once we're home.

Another way I know God is totally at work is my friend, Jenny.  She lives about 45 minutes from us and has 3 kids already and adopting sweet little Joleigh, who lives at the HOH with Silas.  We've connected lately, taken pictures of each others' kids when traveling for court, asked each other a million questions...  She's about 2 weeks behind us in this process and hopefully she'll be going to get Joleigh soon.  Yesterday, we 'met' for the first time in person!  I know, most people have met their friends, but this is the 21st century, right?  Ha!  Well, we got together to let our kids play and we had a chance to really talk.  It was such a blessing.  I hope our kids are always friends and our babies will have a special bond that they won't share with anyone else.  (We've already set up an arranged marriage!)  I can't wait to love on that sweet girl next week.

Speaking of next week, I talked to Ashley today and our Embassy appointment is Monday, April 4.  Since we're approved and cleared to travel, as soon as we get there we can take custody of him.  That means I'm leaving as soon as possible!  We leave Monday, get him Wednesday, have the appointment the next Monday and will be home later in the week.  We can't pick up his printed visa until Wednesday.  If you're planning on breaking into my house, don't think about it!  We have way too many people keeping an eye on it for us and feeding the dog, etc.  :)

Prayer requests:
*Pray that Cooper does well while we're away
*Pray that he's accepting of Silas and us when we return
*Pray that the birthparent meeting happens and we are able to convey our family well and she accepts us as her son's parents
*Pray for safe travels
*Pray we are able to make lasting connections in Ethiopia

Now to tackle the To Do list.....

I'm coming home, I'm coming home...

...says Silas!!

I’m coming home

I’m coming home

Tell the world I’m coming home

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday

I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes

I’m coming home, I’m coming home

Tell the world that I’m coming

Today we got Embassy approval to travel.  Tomorrow we find out the date of our Embassy appointment to get his travel visa.  Hopefully we'll fly out early next week!  I can't wait to hold him again!!

Wait

It took me a few times reading this through to really let it sink in.  We got our referral over 4 months ago...we've spent almost half of his little life watching him grow up through pictures graciously sent by other parents.  I thought we would have been home a long time ago and, while I don't understand the wait, I know there must be a reason for it.

Wait

by Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for tee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

Pure joy? Really?

James 1:2-6
"Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.
If you need wisdom, ask your generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind."


There are a lot of things that I could be upset about right now...we should have our boy at home with us by now, the unknown medical issues we know we'll face once he's home, the state of Ethiopian adoption right now (I haven't had the heart to actually process this and write about it yet), I could go on...


Frankly, these things are more upsetting to us than you would ever know.  It's hard to put on a happy face and answer the questions about when we're going back to get him, having to honestly say that we don't know when we'll see him again.  It's torture having your child on the other side of the world and having no control over it....and well, I like to at least feel like I have some control over the situations I'm in.  I want him here to snuggle and love on.  I need to get him to the doctor because he has rickets and it's much more involved than we had expected before we met him.  We need to begin treatment and figure out what our future looks like and hopefully correct his issues (more on this later as well).  I don't necessarily find joy in any of these things.


What I do find joy in, though, is knowing that I don't know God's plan.  I know that what he has planned for us is more amazing than anything we could have ever wished or dreamed of.  I find comfort and joy in that...ha, tidings of comfort and joy.  I sound like a Christmas song.  And yes, I find joy in those too!  I just cracked myself up.  :)

We had fun with the bubble machine this evening.  

Oh, what am I going to do with one more boy in the house??

When you love someone

When you love someone, you'll do anything
You'll do all the crazy things that you can't explain
You'll shoot the moon, put out the sun
When you love someone

You'll deny the truth, believe a lie
There'll be times that you'll believe you can really fly
But your lonely nights, have just begun
When you love someone

When you love someone, you'll feel it deep inside
And nothin else can ever change your mind
When you want someone, when you need someone
When you need someone...

When you love someone, you'll sacrifice
You'd give it everything you got and you won't think twice
You'd risk it all, no matter what may come
When you love someone
You'll shoot the moon, put out the sun
When you love someone


-Bryan Adams

Nesting

His suitcase is packed.  Cabinets and closets are getting cleaned out and organized to put new baby things in them.  New toys are coming out of packages and put together.  A few more minor projects and we're ready to go!

I really want to be getting a call this week.  We met our sweetness 5 weeks ago and passed court 3 weeks ago.  It's been way too long since we've seen him.  Thankfully, there are other CHI mamas there who are going to take more pictures for us.  Even though I know we're close to being with him forever, I want to get every little glimpse of him I can.

Think he'll remember us when we ever get back there again?

He actually DID something...besides throw papers

Just kidding.  :)

Up until now, I've taken care of all of the paperwork for the adoption and let me tell you, there's a TON of it!  It's been incredibly stressful but obviously worth it.  Since I've taken care of it all, Justin hasn't really had a hand in the 'process' and list making side of things.  He's been more of the do-er type, helping with the baby's room, throwing papers to bring in more money, etc.  Since we received our adoption decree on Monday he's been trying to figure out how to get Silas added to his health insurance.  Tonight he completed all of the paperwork and it's in the mail tomorrow!!  He's so proud of himself so I thought I'd give him a shout out!

Small, Medium, Large...Suitcases! The packing has begun!

The baby's suitcase is packed!  That's a huge accomplishment...thinking of every little thing that may be needed during the week we're with him in Ethiopia before we come home-and there's no Walmart to pick anything up that we forget.  I had to upgrade his suitcase from small to medium and it's packed full!

Justin and I are going to try to get everything we need in our large suitcase for the two of us.  We did it last time in the medium one.  I think we can fit a few more days worth of clothes in the one just bigger.

Our smallest suitcase is being reserved for more donations...this is what the large one was for last trip!  It was amazing!  I'd like to have bag space to bring home souvenirs so on the way there, it will be used for donations for the House of Hope, where Silas and so many other children are living right now.  A family who just returned from their court trip received this list of supplies that are needed:
*Diaper rash ointment
*Anti-fungal cream
*Zinc oxide ointment
*Multi-vitamins for babies (Poly-Vi-Sol)
*Cloth diapers
*Baby lotion (0-2 years)

If you'd like to help out with any of these it would be greatly appreciated.  I know we'll be going to the drug store to get some for sure.  When we took the huge suitcase full of donations last time they hugged us so big and were so proud of what we'd brought them!  Almaz, the director's wife, told Justin, "Your baby's friends may need some of this stuff!!"  She was so sweet and so appreciative.  Makes me want to use any extra few dollars we have to bring back more things they need.

I miss him

Four weeks ago today, we met him.  This is the first picture I took of him.  At that time I just knew we'd be home with him by now.  We're not and we still don't know when we'll get to see him again.  I'm praying for a phone call to come any day.